Here I am just believing in myself.
Item No. 1
The tile has been ordered! I am so excited and it has lit a fire under me to get other things done in the house that I have just let go. Honestly, because it costs money and takes time to decorate. Who has any of that?!? It adds up! I mean just the other day I bought some spackle $5, new curtain rods $100, and a rug $145. Not cheap! However, I had forgotten the joy that creating a comfortable space makes me. I had started to feel a little sad like my house wasn’t so cute anymore. I have been pouring over Pinterest and Instagram looking at new ideas. I like the new style it’s so clean and not like 1999 USA/Americana decor on twenty nine shelves and every crevice of your home. I had that AND a Van Gogh Starry Night bathroom, AND a bathroom painted in the corners with sponges to look like moss and teeny tiny little tendrils of vines that I had carefully painted on the walls. That was my first house.
In this home…home number four where I have settled I had the glorious decor of 2005. Rusts and Olive greens, Browns, Earth tones…..you know the heavy French/Italian look. A lot of my decorations are from my house when I was married. I have painted and re-purposed a lot of stuff to blues and grays, but still as I looked around at my heavy black curtains with the jacquard lining and my big heavy curtain rods I felt….well…heavy. I made those curtains from scratch back when I had more time and when my sewing machine and serger worked. Maybe that is why I have kept them for so long. I know what painstaking work it took to make them, just right, the perfect curtain for my once perfect house. You know though here’s the thing, I purchased white curtains at IKEA like three years ago so finally I bit the bullet and went to Target to get new rods. It was actually really exciting. What was also exciting that I just soaked up and loved every second of was wandering around Target aimlessly through the departments that I wanted to look at. I wasn’t on a time crunch I was luxuriously shopping at Target! Anywho, I have been in this home for over ten years. It is time to update a few more things.
But also, on the flip side, I like my stuff and I like blues and grays. I thought I would get rid of my kitchen table but the truth is I like the lines of my kitchen table. They are simple and clean. Plus a lot of memories of just the kids and I have been made around that table. So I will keep that…maybe eventually new chairs but for now there are still things I like. My old window that I bought on an antiquing trip to Miami/Globe with my Aunt Margie and cousin Vanessa. My hutch that was gifted to me from my Grandma when she passed away. I love the art that I have purchased to hang in my home, mostly religious art but that is who WE are in this home. I guess the conclusion I have come to with this whole redecorating thing is it is ok that I am not getting everything new, but to update a few key pieces to help my home feel fresh is really exciting to me!
I found a bottle of touch up paint and I spackled the walls where all the nail holes were and I am going to touch those up tomorrow. I like to tape my Christmas cards to my pantry door however, when I take them off it peels off the paint. So, I am going to repaint the front of that door and think of a better method for the cards. I also have a chalkboard which was painted on the back of the door that leads to the garage that could use a fresh coat or two. I don’t think chalkboards are in style anymore but I love it because I can make grocery lists, to-do lists, menus out of the ingredients I have in the house and then write down meals for the week. Currently, it has a list of things I am grateful for. So, it might not be cool but it serves an amazing function for me.
I think the fact that my BFF is buying a home for the first time in years has kind of helped me to feel excited too. I can’t wait to see what she does! She is so creative and always has a beautiful home. I am really, really, happy for her. Just like it’s time for me to do a little updating it is OVERDUE time for her to get to decorate and design a new home. It’s so fun looking at ideas and honestly…I stole some of hers.